What a roller
coaster this winter has been. Knocked off course a few times, under
virus attack again and once again testing those boundaries and
risking friendships and love in the faith that there is something
beautiful waiting on the other side of all this.
This New Moon
Eclipse must be like a deep cleaning of the inner truths and the
outside lies. Asking us to choose our path Faith and Love or Fear and
Hate. I have felt and said this before that the time is coming when
each soul must make its choice of if it wants to keep repeating
lessons or learn it and move on. This school is ending.
I was doing some
research and came across a video that explored many ideas I have
often thought about not only with human consciousness and the
direction our society is heading but with our connection to the past
and the idea of, in order to know where you are going you have to
stop long enough to see where you have been. In this all or nothing
society that we have been taught to not dwell in the past and that
much is true. Yet we have lost the gift of the past, which is to
learn.
I am not into sports
but I would imagine that after ever great loss and win the coaches
and players watch replays of the games and moves they felt
contributed to or sabotaged the outcome of the game. Most of us have
lost the ability to do that consciously so the universe has a
beautiful yet sometimes painful way of making us face those choices
everyday and without a replay or a change of play, the game is bound
to either keep repeating itself or explode by the sure insanity of
it.
We must learn from
the past but learn not to dwell there in it. Dwelling in the what
if's keep you from experiencing the what could be's has always been
my thought. My first question when talking with some one who is
seeking my counsel over a painful event is Did you learn something?
No really? not just the superficial “Not to do that again”. You
see that means you haven’t went far enough to find the lesson that
keeps looping. So your bound to have it happen again. There are
patterns and cycles in everything. There is no coincidences. Not when
you look deeper into the mean of things. Weather a curse or a
blessing my brain takes notes of meanings in everything that is drawn
to. Not to say every event is interconnected but depending on how
deep into thought you want to get you might just find even if it is a
string that is connected there. It's there for a reason. Yet as
painful or happy the lesson. The key to not repeating it is to now
move from the past into the present and applying what it was you
learned. Believe me you will have an opportunity to do that...
Lets just say
Eclipse season is like the push we need to make it to the next level
of understanding ourselves and the world in which we are helping to
create. Like each one that came before it brings opportunities to
grow and change. Huge leaps in personal and global consciousness.
It's like the exam is here and time to prove what we have learned and
to see if we have enough courage to use it.
I have been
researching and seeking answers to many questions over the past 20 or
more years. Definitely since my Father died. And this much I have
found to be true. Becoming and striving to be a solitary individual
in a society bent on creating a hive mentality is a very courageous
and brave act and those that find it seem to not only create their
own happiness but seem to be the most intelligent people you will
ever meet. They now live from where lessons are learned and new
ideas applied. Where they are now experiencing life on life terms and
accepting each event as an opportunity to expand their understanding
and experiencing life from a new perspective. If it was only that
easy....
I have been
struggling along with everyone else in how t break free of old habits
and patterns. Not only in my everyday activities but in my deeper
thoughts and understanding of the world in which I reside in. This
year the man made calendar will of said I have watched 50 sunsets and
sunrises. You think that I would have more to show for that but it
has taking me about that long to untrain my mind to the things that
have never served me, to let go of the guilty that never belonged to
me and learning to accept that as much as all my life I wanted to be
like everyone else, I am not and never will. That I am responsibly
not only to myself but especially to my son to be the best version of
myself I can be and the greatest gift I can give him is to learn from
my mistakes and help him learn from his. The lessons them selves are
not always easy and what I am learning is it is just as hard
sometimes to learn a new way of doing and thinking about things. Yet
it is so gratifying to not have to be repeating the same lesson time
and time again. I never believed we were here to just survive and if
so we should already know from science that we are an incredible
species weather Natural, Created or Hybrid. We have survived many
events with less then we have now and lost it all to rebuild it again
and again. We must only look to our own personal and global past to
learn from and take responsibility for our actions and try and
understand the other intentions and behaviors. Then when presented
with an opportunity to now apply, do it without hesitation. That is
what they say separates us from the other mammals. Our ability to
think and reason for ourselves. Its such a shame we have lost this
survival instinct. Keep in mind intentional or unintentional either
way there is something to gain to make sure that lesson has served
you well. Then move on to leaning new ways of perceiving and being
in your world. You would be surprised how small action bring about
big results. Just like small acts of Faith conquer life long Fears.
Well it will be
interesting to see what changes and new opportunity come my way
through learning to set these boundaries and staying true to myself
and remembering that, even if we have a zillion things in common no
two experiences are the same even when experienced by the same
person. ( No matter how many times they say, “I know how you feel”
that's just a human way of saying “Hey, something like that
happened to me too”. ) So I need to go easy on myself and allow new
doors to open while keeping the Faith that as the road splits that I
will have learned all the lessons I needed to make it to the other
side. Peace will reign on Earth as promises but remember we have to
go through the revelations first. Knowing something is only one half
of then doing something about it. The first step on the path is
always the easiest its those last few that take real dedication and
applying what you have learned.
Eclipses season is
the best time for inner perceptive and outer change. Use this time
wisely, we never know when the road will split but we can be sure we
want to be on the side of what we want, not more of what has been...
