Getting Inspired

I love going to the library and seeing what books want to come home with me. I see a theme coming together...

They say I am a dreamer....

It might be raining outside but in my heart the sun is shining. 
I woke up with a Pebble and Bam Bam song playing in my head " let the sunshine in". Thank God for You Tube I was able to look it up and what a smile I had listening to that this morning. I ended up posting it on my Facebook, I am sure some people got a giggle about it. I know I did. 
While watching it I was thinking about the difference between the way TV influenced me and how it influences the children today. I grew up with music and laughter and they now are growing up with violence and music that express sex and in some cases more violence. When I thinking about all the variety shows that made us laugh and the sitcoms that brought a life message without skin and the 7 deadly sins as a everyday occurrence.  No wonder at times we all want to put our heads in the sand and let the kids sort it out for themselves some where down the rode.   I am so grateful I have brought my childhood into my son's life.  He has been raised on Classic TV and it is a blessing to see his mind expand by bridging not only laughter and joy but sadness and unnecessary violence. Even this morning we had a talk about age appropriate games and movies. It seems I have taught him well when he says to me " Your right mom all you have to do is look around at the world to see what we have been doing is not working". I use that line a lot. If how we have been raising the last few generations was so good then why are we in the mess were in now? 
What a difference it could make if TV went back to making us laughter, not at others pain and misery but just for the sake of laughing. What if we brought back variety shows where comedians and actors let loose and taught us it was okay to laugh at ourselves and not take life so serious.   To bring back the Gong Show, where talent wasn't based on looks and ratings but real talent or the lack of it. Would it really be so bad to not have reality shows that are scripted to either distort or exploit life and other behaviors or even stop watching death television, isn't  real death and murder enough for us? We have to watch it 24 hours a day?  What if ? What if the whole world for a week unplugged and plugged back into life, if the kids put on musicals and comedy skits and the grown up put down their phones and showed them we cared.  If we each took time to get to know our neighbors and reconnect to our families, What a difference a week could make. What if TV became a tool again for upliftment  instead of destruction.   You can say I am a dreamer and maybe that is true but I can say TV once taught me to dream and I am glad I am able to give that gift to my son too....  

Tick Tock.....

Tick Tock goes the clock on this roller coaster I call my life. The past few months have been a balancing act of maintaining all I have gained while battling an emotional and physical custody battle that even as of today is still in motion. 
I must admit that I have not done a very good job at times but I will say I have grown tremendously. In the emotions of fear of losing what I love the most, I have found the peace to find a deeper strength I never knew I had. I faced death with courage and faith, I have endured poverty like I have never known yet today I have found a peace I never expected to find.  
I had been lost in emotions for so long and I let my fears of the unknown keep me from living in the now and experiencing what is real. 
What is real? 
I am stiff because I have let my yoga practice take a back seat. 
My body has suffered the ills of neglect so I have had to go back to western medicine. 
My mind was lost in emotions so long I almost lost touch with the magic of my life. 
I am now crawling out of the dark into the light and I have never felt more devoted to myself, my son and our future... 
Today I recommitted myself to the things that bring me joy;
spending quality time with my son
my yoga mat
painting 
conscious eating and 
creative expression.... 
Funny thing, the moment I decided to live in devotion instead of fear the sun came out, my heart opened like never before and a peace the passeth all understanding entered my heart... 
As the Sun is setting, rose incense is burning in the living room, I just made some homemade ketchup to go with my meatless Mondays dinner and soon we will be settling down to watch a movie. 
I would say life doesn't get better then this but there is always tomorrow...