Only The Truth Can Set You Free......

I must say it is refreshing to finally hear people speak their truth.. We have become a nation of liars from the simple "I will be with you in 5 min" to the "I promise when I am elected {fill in the blank} to what little old ladies refereed to as the "white" lie. People build dating pages full of them, make fake Facebook pages, lie that your sick to get out of work, as you can see there is no need to go on. I found this in myself many years ago and asked myself why? why do we all lie? A better question is why do we Hide the Truth. Why are we afraid to call a spade and spade? why are we afraid to say "Hey you told me 5 mins and I have been here 15" and if you do why does that person get mad that you told them the truth?????? Just say "Hey, I am sorry I just said that because I don't know how long it will be but I have to lie and tell you something so it will look like I know what I am doing" Yeah like that is ever going to happen but at least a acknowledge of the lie is better then getting mad you got caught but you see once again I am just skimming the surface. The women behind the counter her lie goes deeper. she doesn't want to be working there but she has to, It's not a career for her, its not something see loves, its just a pay check. See we have taught our children to lie by our behavior and then they grow up hiding who they are and trying all their lives to live up to the lie they are trying to create and when they cant do it anymore they turn to drugs and alcohol, sex, food you name it. They lose their dreams and end up working a job they hate, probable living in a town they feel stuck in... it goes on and on but the beauty of Truth is that it does set you free. Free to be yourself. It is not easy living your truth believe me I have lost many a friend and marriages over living my truth and staying true to myself and my values. When my dad died my whole world changed and I asked myself when I die what do I want to be remembered as and it was being my authentic self. My Dad passed in the early 90 and it has been a journey to remove all the lies others told me and that I told myself to discover the hidden truth of who am I and why I felt so unworthy to tell the truth, one of the most preached virtue but the one most staring us in that face that everyone is doing from commercials, to food labels,to history to warfare to our own government. We preach to our kids to tell the truth or they will get punished but yet everyday we live our own personal lies. It's no wonder this generation has given up, I would too if I was them we are a bunch of hypocrites.. God said the Truth shall set you free and that is NO LIE!! Telling the truth can be painful to the person telling it and the person receiving it but truth is like a sword one side there is pain but on the other is joy. joy in being YOU!! in knowing that all those around you truly love and care for you, that the job you have chosen is what is best for you not just because you need the money. That you have system in place that is transparent and is working toward the greater good of all mankind and our home planet. Like i said it isn't easy but it is worth it and it all starts with each one of us speaking our truth and not excepting less then the truth from each other. We must teach other again its okay to be honest, that the key to unite is truth, trust and love. There is no higher calling in this life then to live honestly. Truth is a mighty weapon but also can be the saving grace...Keep in mind that there is one thing about the TRUTH, it needs no defense, it just IS!!! ♥

Just thinking...

I was just thinking how you can create  your day anyway you want. Each  morning is a new chance the start a new. We could either drag the pains of tomorrow in to today or we can let go of them and make way for new memories and new things. While going through old photos today I was amazed at the memories I had forgotten, the memories they came flooding back. I was taken aback by the thought of living in the now. So much of yesterday's forgotten and there's so much about tomorrow we don't know. That really all we do have is today. Looking at those pictures I realize I'm not the person I used to be and I'm excited to see the person that I'm becoming. Pictures only capture moments in time, it's what we do with those moments that count more. Not that we were able to keep them stored on the hard drive. It's nice to be able to share the moments captured by a photo but even better to share the moment live!! So I'm glad that I am able to live in both worlds, the moment of now and remembering the past.. I guess this morning's lesson is it's not whether you can capture a memory: it's really whether you can create a memory that last a lifetime!

So everyone is asking what am I doing as my line of defense, I find that so interesting because that is what I am doing. First on Monday I just enjoyed being home with my son. While studying up on Diverticulitis. It's cause and effects along with how this fit in with The Virus I battle. I found that Inflammation and Infection = Immune Deficiency!! This has been one of my top issues over the years. I still find it funny how many people I meet that have been diagnosed with something only know what the doctor told them in a 15 minute appointment. So after about two days research it is turning out something like this:
     First Line Of Defense; Learn ALL you can about what you have or what you already know and don't be afraid to expand that more and more everyday. This is YOUR life your trying to improve. No one is going to do it for you.
     Second; Take what you have Learned and Try to Apply it in some way into your day. My First area of Defense is "Food". I have seen what it has done for me in the past and I know it can bring on Healing in more ways and in a speeder time then traditional medicines, Even though I do believe in some cases that  Western medicine can work hand in hand with  a Holistic approach but that is my point, medicine without food changes really mean nothing.
I need to get back to"My" Basics first ;
    Chaga Tea: This Tea is one of the reasons I no longer take 8 prescriptions and 34 pills a day just to stay alive. Chaga even amazed my infectious disease doctor for those of you wanting to know more here is a link  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inonotus_obliquus
    Green Live Juice; I have a favorite I use from Fully Raw Kristina, "Soulshine Juice".
It's; 5-7 Honey Crisp or Pink Lady Apples
      5-6 Stalks Of Celery
      1 Cucumber
      3 lemons
      1 head or bunch of Kale
      1    1 1/2 head of Romaine Lettuce.
Now I adjust the amount to fit me but I put it all in the juicer then stir and drink. Yummy!!!!
     My Justine Tea; This tea was made for me special from my Herbalist. I can not praise mine enough for the leaps we have made with my tea and other blends. If it wasn't for a dear friend of mine I would of never understood the role Nature plays in the field of healing, now that is getting back to basics. So I recommend for those of you still struggling after numerous attempts with Western Medicine to find your local Herbalist or ask at your local Co-Op's for people in your area working in this field of Healing. It will change your life.
    And last on the liquid front WATER!!  I have often heard it said hydrate, hydrate, hydrate and I have also heard plenty of people say, I drink tea, I drink coffee, I drink flavored water does that count? NO!! Hello Humans lived on this planet for millions of years before caffeine was invented or adding flavor to your water. Let use some common sense shouldn't at least ONE thing you put in your mouth be pure. { I know we have many debates over that word and our water sources but lets put that aside for this point.} When it comes to life the one thing you can not live without is Water. You must make wise choices. I have drank from the stream, I have drank bottled and I have used a purifier. Your body will tell you, at least mine does. I either cant get my lips to even sip it or intuitively I have to say no. This is where not all water is equal, try a few and explore SAFE drinking holes or streams in your area. Either way get that water in. I drink out of a Clear Glass Bottle this is what I have chosen to go with Glass over Plastic as much as possible and I use the power of Emoto's theory of water. This seem to now be my drink of choice. My son has only tasted twice in his life a soda and his choice still is water over anything. To spice things up we sometimes add fruits and herbs, sometime also cucumber but we like our water "Pure". We know the power of water and what it can do to rejuvenate the body. We also know the effects caffeine can have on the brain and body. We chose life, Thank you!!
Next important task is "My" Intake Of Food;   You think being limited to "Clear Liquids and Toast"/Low Residue food would be easy but that isn't true. From these choices I have to make sure I am healing my intestines while also giving my body the nutrients it needs to keep my immune system working full stream to fight off the infection. I am taking Antibiotics at home but to make sure they only help and do no harm I must give my body extra of what it needs. This is where researching what is happening to your body comes into play. Taking what the disease is doing to your body and matching it to the foods it needs to help it heal is a winning combination. See everything that enters my body right now has a purpose. "Let Food Be Thy Medicine".  I must remove all allergens while leaving nutrients. How do I do this? I have been studying my body since I was first sick in 2002. From that starting point I have studied it all...LOL  { Library Junkie, remember.. LOL } I have now had to narrow myself to a few choice foods that well be transitioning me once again into a new way of eating. I guess I could see the 5 days without food and water a new slate in which to eat.. LOL  So far my food intake consist of this;
    Morning ; Justine Tea
                   Choice of:                
 1/2 c. of Whole Cottage Cheese { Found one, 4% milk,No Artificial Growth Hormones: Cabot "Vermont" style Cottage Cheese. } Most of you know I don't do dairy but right now I am limited on choices for low residue foods.

 1 c. Apples Sauce

and Gluten Free Toast { the best one I have found without eggs is Udi's, right now I can only have their White but it is delicious!!}

 Cacaocolate Pudding {LOL}
1 Banana
1 Avocado (remove pit)
1 teaspoon of Cacao Powder
1Tbl spn of Agave
Add all ingredients to blender or food processor and then blend to creamy texture
{Topper with your favorite berry, NOT me I cant right now but it sure is Yummy!}

   Mid Day Snack: Soul Shine Green Drink

Lunch and Dinner:  Choice of; {at this time just reintroducing food after 5 days none and 5 days liquids and toast only}
Tomato Soup with crackers or 1/2 gluten free toast
Vegetable Broth with Crackers
Mashed and Well Cooked; Carrots, Sweet Potatoes, White Flesh Potatoes {without the skins}
Fish/ Tuna {limited because of seafood allergies}
Some days having only Liquid soups and broths and no cooked vegetables {everything as fresh as possible}

Drinking Chaga and Water through out the Day

    Night: The Justine Tea

As you can see my day right now is busy with preparing foods ahead of time, switching over Austin while cooking his individual needs, as well as doing research on many subjects related to getting healthy and gaining my purpose in all this. I can tell you this all has not been easy. With trips to the Grocery store where it teases me with Fruits and Vegetables I cant have and Laughs at me with misleading labels. Where a once quick salad is reduced to a slow simmering boil and where my days are filled with mixed emotion of what to do next but for now I am content in the fact I am doing  one thing through out my day that promotes good health. I am using Food as my medicine and finally being accountable for EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth. This week Food is My Foundation,

So I hope that answered your questions and gave you some insight into "My Life" and how I am now taking an active part in my own healing while sharing the journey with you!!!

As I wake up this morning I am faced with sending Austin off to his first day of sixth grade. Boy where does the time fly and preparing to change my eating habits one more time. it is not like I haven't been down this road before with food allergies and boosting my immune system but now I am doing it with Colon health in mind. Wow, talk about a subject most of us would rather not talk about or even think about. I heard it said yesterday on a video I watched "it's simple what goes in must come out!" but what most Americans including me don't think about is what is going in and how is it going to get it out.  We take Eating, Pooping and even Farting and Burping lightly when without any of those working as they should we face dyer consequences. I have learned more in the 7 days spent in the Hospital then I wanted about issues like these and many more. I remember laying in the Hospital bed just waiting for the day to come I would Fart, something we all do but I wasn't. Hooked up to machines and bags for food with even the scare of a tube being placed down my throat to feed me. How did I get here and what in the Hell have I got myself into when Farting becomes not only a luxury but a sign of healing.
I have crossed many bridges and made big strides in my eating or lack of over the past few years. I have removed allergens, tackled GMO and learned more about the Human bodies fragility in a society that cares more about profit margin and Heath care cost then I ever thought I would. I  have battled the emotion reaction to "You can't eat that?" or " Sorry we don't make that or we don't carry that" to simple ignorance, all along me screaming inside "Hello" I am just trying to live here!!!!....
Even in the hospital they tried to give me vegetable broth with chicken in it.. {allergic to Chicken, yes I know its strange but true. first case my allergist had seen in his years of practice} and Gluten free bread with eggs... {eggs come from chickens DUH} next with seeds.. { Ah... Diverticulitis, no seeds or nuts please}  The world just takes these things granite but at what hidden cost. Cancer in the US is on the rise, Children and Adults are showing Gluten intolerance at alarming rates and Colon and Intestine diseases are on the rise as well.   Did you know that 1 out of 3 American will suffer some form of Diverticulitis or other Colon diseases most going untreated or undiagnosed because they are masked by Burping, Farting, Bloating and Other Stomach issues we treat with over the counter drugs. That most American take what they put in there mouth with less care then their cars or even what they feed their children compared to their pets??? Now that is Alarming!! In Northern California where I once lived the surgeon that took my Gallbladder out { yes been there too, it stopped working for about a year before it screamed to get out and right before gang green set in YUCK}  That he was then treating as young as 13 year old to have theirs removed. When did we lose sight of being Human. We are not Meat suit designed for designer food and chemical and bio chemical food. We are an organic living creature that weather you believe in God or Darwin the facts remain the same.  What we are putting into out bodies are either going to GIVE us LIFE or TAKE it AWAY!!  Yes Humans are living longer but at what cost? A life on synthetic drugs and fake food and hooked up to machines? When are we going to learn the greatest lesson from Hippocrates "Let Food Be Thy Medicine". I know I am not turning my back on that one anymore.
I often say being a AB-  I am the latest in Human Evolution. My blood type has only been on the planet for 1000 years and I can tell by my life and my research that I am more sensitive to things then most but statistics show that most Americans are having the same issues on a different scale then me but if my life is an example of what the food is doing to our bodies and our minds then extinction is possible if changes are not made. If to you this sound a bit Harsh ask yourself the rise in Autism and other genetic issues coming to the fore front. Studies are showing change in diet can often show great results in many children. So all I am saying is please take it from  me, read labels, listen to your body and most of all learn more about what your eating and good colon health. Did you know even the most healthiest diet can lack the daily Fiber needed to move food through your body in a healthy way?  Most Americans needing 25-35 gms a day? Where are you on that scale? Ask yourself theses and other question, why am I farting and burping so much, or is that Bloating trying to tell me something? Do it now when you have a choice before like me your facing emergency surgery and looking at wearing a colostomy bag for 6-8 month maybe even life. Think about how that would change your life? Think about if it was your child laying there? I was lucky but there are many Americans who are not.  Someone today is being told they have Cancer, Someone today is having part of their Colon removed, Someone today Died because of being untreated and uneducated, Let that someone NOT BE YOU!!!!!!

Waking up to the fact I am only Human........

Doing research this morning on my new eating regime for the next 3 weeks and beyond. Like my life wasn't complicated enough!! So far all I know is that I should of listened to my body six years ago when it started to rebel!!!! Maybe I wouldn't of spent 7 days in the hospital fighting to keep a section of my colon and from wearing a colostomy bag for 6-8 month, hell the rest of my life? All along being treated with high does of antibiotic to fight off an infection while trying to keep my Virus from raring it's ugly head. NO F**king Fun believe me. If just the thought of that wasn't emotionally bad enough after Austin not quite having the summer he expected coming home to find me hooked up to machines and IV's and once again sporting a two piece Johnny was not the home coming I had planned or that he needed to let him know everything is going to be ok. Lucky I was in a beautiful hospital that treated the whole me and showed me respect the kind you would want when facing life on life's terms while feeling your most vulnerable. The hospital and it's staff went out of their way for me and Austin to have the best home coming we could of in that situation, Austin came home to one big family that was looking after one another. The kindness going from the housekeeping staff, kitchen and nurses and lets not forget those volunteers and all my friends who came to visit and sent cards you all gave me time to reflect on my life, my family and that maybe I do only have one life. and as Judas Priest said "I am going to life it up!!" The universe said we have many lives but whose to say we get many chance after were died. The mind can be a beautiful friend or a cunning trickster, it's up to us who we choose to listen too. I know am listening to my beautiful friend, my body who is telling me its time for a change a true rebirth from the cellular point of view. Even though my time at the hospital was one of many lessons I wont ever allow myself to be there again without knowing I did everything I could to not allow it to. 7 days was enough for me to see I am only human but my spirit rides with the faith and hope of the Angels and with thoughts like that I can move mountains. Who would of thought with all my brushes with death the one thing that opened my eyes was the one that made me see "I am not afraid to die as much as I am afraid to live a painful life."