Tick Tock.....

Tick Tock goes the clock on this roller coaster I call my life. The past few months have been a balancing act of maintaining all I have gained while battling an emotional and physical custody battle that even as of today is still in motion. 
I must admit that I have not done a very good job at times but I will say I have grown tremendously. In the emotions of fear of losing what I love the most, I have found the peace to find a deeper strength I never knew I had. I faced death with courage and faith, I have endured poverty like I have never known yet today I have found a peace I never expected to find.  
I had been lost in emotions for so long and I let my fears of the unknown keep me from living in the now and experiencing what is real. 
What is real? 
I am stiff because I have let my yoga practice take a back seat. 
My body has suffered the ills of neglect so I have had to go back to western medicine. 
My mind was lost in emotions so long I almost lost touch with the magic of my life. 
I am now crawling out of the dark into the light and I have never felt more devoted to myself, my son and our future... 
Today I recommitted myself to the things that bring me joy;
spending quality time with my son
my yoga mat
painting 
conscious eating and 
creative expression.... 
Funny thing, the moment I decided to live in devotion instead of fear the sun came out, my heart opened like never before and a peace the passeth all understanding entered my heart... 
As the Sun is setting, rose incense is burning in the living room, I just made some homemade ketchup to go with my meatless Mondays dinner and soon we will be settling down to watch a movie. 
I would say life doesn't get better then this but there is always tomorrow...