We Truly Are Stardust

I was reading a blog this morning and came across a beautiful quote from Astrophysicist, Niel deGrasse Tyson. Which expressed the simple but yet beautiful fact that we are all connected to each other biologically, to the Earth chemically and the rest of the universe atomically. How amazing is that?!  He is right how large that makes me feel and how special that makes each one of us. Why does that thought make me shy away? Why am I afraid to see myself as different then what I have been taught to believe. From the moment we are born at least my generation we have been born of separation and sin. That from my first breath I already was something that God looked down in shame on.. that I had to confess of my sin, even though I had done nothing but been born of flesh and from that moment I was taught I am and always will be a sinner no matter what I did. That even attending church could not guarantee my favor with god. That I had to be vigilante of some red horned shaped devil man and his following that would tempt me into being worse then a sinner, a active one...  It all sounds so bizarre when reduced to the truth. It's funny how quite the opposite is True,  I am Creators greatest creation and the moment I was born I was given the greatest gift of all; life in the Creators Kingdom..  Earth it is just one of his Kingdoms in the heavens and yet maybe we are on a small planet, in a small universe but we are part of a larger picture, a deeper meaning to life, one in which we are celebrated for our worth and our lives treasured as the Children of God and Living Creation. One where we are not sinners but a beautiful dance of biological, chemical and atomic energy that some how was gifted consciousness in the search for ones place among the stars. Where on the day you were born you weren't looked upon as a sinner as much as a Miracle... Maybe if we started seeing ourselves through those eyes we would finally be set free from our sins since the cross seemed to have done no good. No good at all.. Then we can see each other in ourselves and in turn start to respect life and each other in a more loving and respectful way. If you knew that everyone was you and what you did to them you did to yourself , let alone GOD!! what a difference that would make in today's world and the next generation. Next time you look at something see God and try hating it, judging it or even worse hurting it.. trying seeing everything from a larger picture, lets say a Heavens view down not on a world of sinners but a world of potentialities...
Thank you Niel deGrasse Tyson for making something so complicated so simple and yet so true...

Morning Insight and Commitment...

Yesterday was a very lazy day in which I did mostly nothing. I mean I got up to check on Austin, stretched a bit and took care of our basic needs but that was about that. The storm had carried with it about 12-14 inches of snow and I was content to just be in my head all day. I must say at one point we did try to tackle Austin's Xbox but after a few hours of what felt like circles we gave up. Today all this computer stuff makes no sense.. being all connected seems to make life more   complicated then when we got to choose when and who we talk to or even commerce with. I am still a bit confused seeing as for the last three years I have been basically for layman's terms sleep walking but it seems to me I have woke up in a world of the Matrix.. What happened to the good old days when you bought a game console you plugged it in and played it. Now you have to open accounts, give personal info, blood type and first born just so you can turn it on and use it. Oh and God forbid there is something wrong 2 hours emails to fix something that use to be fixed by a reset button on the side. I don't know about anyone else but that seems like more work to me. Why do they need so much from you.. consumer safety, marketing, updates, ect, Yuck , BS, yada yada yada.. more like invade my privacy and take up my time so my kid can play your game..that even though I bought it I cant just play it. Madness and I thought I had lost my mind while I was sick. Maybe I was in the better place all along..

 Today's insight.. If it wasn't broke in the first place don't fix it and sometimes what we think are advancements in civilization are really loses of  our liberties in disguise...

Today I commit to unplugging myself from the Matrix from time to time to see what the Hell is really going on here in my own life and on Planet Earth!!!!!

Morning Insight and Commitment..

It is hard enough just to live in this body let alone in this world.  I know I am not like everyone else, looking back I have known that all my life. Yes it is true I have tried to deny it but what I have learned is truth is truth not matter how much you try to lie to yourself it is impossible. I can think back easily of many occasions were reality met consciousness in such a way that there could be no denying something super natural but more like super human had just occurred. That is the question that has hunted me all my life was it me that was making things happen? was it them, who ever they are or is it a little of both. Is this on Purpose or is this Chaos ?
These questions have been with me so long they have just became a part of who I am. Gathering answers to my own riddle so that some day I can solve it. As strange as it might sound to some that riddle has carried me on many adventures and saved me from many heart ache, even death. It has kept me alive when death came knocking each time and it opened unseen worlds I never would of believed true with out experiencing it for myself.  In the early morning like today when the snow is falling and our world is shifting I find an inner need to speak to a deeper part of myself or maybe it is more like listen.There is nothing more beautiful and awaking then being in the presence of ones own mind and being present within ones own body. It is within the silence of the moment and the relaxing of the body that I find comfort in the fact that even though I might not have all the answer I seek I do have the ones I need and each day more is reviled.

Today I will live within my body aware of all things and I will have communion with my soul mind in a deeper way.

What if there "Really" is a God???

What if there "Really" is a God? Not the elusive God of the Church but a Universal essence that lives within all Living things? Not one that is Judging because that would be like Judging its self, since all living creations seen and unseen as in the elements forms {wind, air, fire and Earth, Stars and Germs and everything in expansion} come from its contemplation of itself. Not the God of War, because that would be like the Body attacking itself. Like a Autoimmune disease that sees itself as a invader and tries to kill itself off without even knowing it. Not like the God of Greed, who demand  a tithing, a sacrifice or a perversion of the truth to gain his LOVE. That would be like having to pay for Gods grace, That giving your life or killing another human in its Name somehow would earn you a place next to his throne. You would be killing a aspect, like a child of the One your trying to Honor? Killing of God's Children, that makes no sense. That would be like a God who speaks of Truth would never condone a lie especially done in his name or to trick or mislead another, It would be like trying to lie to yourself and we all know that is the one person we can not lie too. If we come form the One, we are the One, the offspring of his Divine creation. Why would a God create such amazing creations to only demand worship instead of give Love.
I mean what if there was a "God" a Creative Force that upon its own desire to expand and evolve it created all you see and even the air you breathe.  It has no Face, because it is Faces less, It has no Gender because only Humans have a body in which its spirits dwell. It has No religion because it has no need to worship itself. It has no Law but the ones of Nature and Physics that keep It's kingdoms in balance and ever creating and evolving. Yet the Force is Compassionate and Just. It's Intelligence surpasses our Human understand but yet the Force is ever teaching and allowing us to choose our lessons as we go. Like a Parent that watches over their child but allows them the freedom to become who ever they chose to be, the Force allows us free will. What if evolution and spirituality were not separate but one aspect that two words belong too. What if Religion and Science were basically the same thing but yet came from two different perspectives. What if the God of our current understand is not at all what we have come to know with the limited understand we have been taught but that "God" is a living essence of the possibility in which lay before our very eyes each and everyday. That in the wind it hugs us with it's outreached arms. With the breathe of life it kisses us softly and everyday breathes new life into it children. That with it's contemplation of itself and allowing its children free will that all you see before you it created along side of you, lending you it ever presence as a guiding light when you let it. That it does not judge you because it does not judge itself but be ever amazed at the challenges you met. It demands nothing more then you are willing to give and asks nothing in return  because it is content within itself. Its only gift is expansion a opportunity to evolve as it was given that itself by something of only its understanding.  That there is no judgement day, no need for war or greed just the desire to be alive and to be a part of this kingdom that was created for and by you and others like you.. What If... Wouldn't the world be a better place if we expand our idea of "God' to go past idea, theories or dogma's . To go  past division and find unity in a expanded understand of the Human race and its place in this Galaxy, let alone Universe. If we gave up our kid like ideas of a White Haired Bearded Man somewhere up in space who Judges those that do not worship and kill in his Name?? Who like Santa makes a list of the Naughty and Nice and decides their fate by listening to the opinions of those that worship him and hold judgement over their own species... who are sure that Paying for grace and bullet proof cars are a sign of true Faith.. Its is time to move pass those things into a deeper relationship with self and the one who made you. So for Today just ask yourself "What If' and as you breathe in know that "The Creator" is kissing you with the breathe of Life, When Nature comes to visit know it is "God" reaching out to make Heaven meet Earth Through the Mother of  Many Forms.When you are faced with a challenge weather great or small that "The Force" is giving you an opportunity for inner or outer growth, a small step in evolution of your Mind, Body and Spirit. A exercise in Free Will without Judgement but those of your own. That When you look to the Skies and the Heavens shine down that you are never truly alone. For we are "All" creation in motion and the same "Spirit' that guides and speaks to you in the echos of your mind speaks to them as well and if you listen closely you to can hear all living things speaking the language of the Creator known as "LOVE". That the same life "Force" that runs through you, runs through all things. No matter the form in which "God" appears it is still All "God" and Today "The Creator" is with you in all things because it is All Things including "YOU"...

Right is Right, Wrong is Wrong Post Inspiration ... {last court case; 28:30 time mark}

This is the Court Case that inspired my earlier post Today... Enjoy!!!

Right is Right and Wrong is Wrong...

In watching a case of Peoples Court I came to a conclusion about the "Truth". If someones Truth is not yours does that always make them a Lair? When you watch litigants in a court setting both swearing to tell the truth you expect there to be some consistence in their stories but most often there are not. Often both stories are so opposing that you wonder how could they even know each other. One of them has to be lying. That's the most obvious conclusion. What if we took that thought farther out? What if they Both believe that to be True, what make one a lair and how do we choose which one to believe? Both in life and in law you look for a more likely then not scenario, does that make sense. If your really good you can translate body language and pick up on discrepancies. It is when Both parts are so convincing of their Truth that we need to ask ourselves maybe that person believes this to be "their Truth"  Then we must assume they acted in such a way as normal to their belief of the truth as they were experiencing it..  You see I have lived by a understand that there will always be "My" Truth, "Your" Truth and all we need to do is meet in the "Middle".
In watching this one episode Truth could never be more opposing. Two stories that are now being brought before a stranger to determine the "Truth" or up hold the law. In watching the case unfold you know that looks can be deceiving but that there is more here then just a breach of contact case.As I listen to the case I too wondered how one person can either lie so blatantly to the judge or  had they really convinced them self that was the Truth? The only thing left was facts but sometimes there will never be hard evidence of certain truth we hold dear. To explain my point of view here. We all believe in a "God" we have no evidence that would hold up in a court of law but yet millions live as if there is one. So even facts do not make the difference sometimes in who is telling the Truth. So here we are left again with opposing stories, not enough facts to support one side over the other and one compiling witness. The defendants daughter, who says she is standing on the side of what is right. As she said when asked "why are you a witness against your mom?". "I know Right from wrong, this is wrong. Right is Right and Wrong is Wrong". The judge then does something not often done in small claims, she take a recess to give time for the plaintiff to try and get more evidence. She too knows someone is a bold face liar and  wants to get to the truth. In life I think there is times when we feel like this. We just want to know the facts and get down to the truth and other times we are fine with the perception we get from others or come to find for ourselves. Either way it is coming to the Truth. There is one thing this case was bringing out for both sides was either this Mother was going to get a wake up call from a daughter who was only living up to the morals her mother once set for her that she herself were not living or this Daughter would have to live with the fact that she stood up in court and called her mom a liar. There was not going to be no middle ground here. No coming to a meeting of the minds. You could see it as the Daughter spoke after the recess that she never want to be in court and the Mother pain of asking herself why?? It then became obvious that the Mother was lying as her eyes got teared as her daughter spoke. You see there is something about Truth that most want to deny to others and themselves but you can't. It is one of the universal Truths.. You can try and lie to everyone else but you can NEVER lie to yourself. Not at the core of your being. Even murders will say "I knew it was wrong but....." You see we can have many perceptions of the Truth but as this young women said "Right is Right and Wrong is Wrong".. Even though it is hard for us as humans to respect each others truth we must let go of the idea that there is only one truth and that is ours. There are many! Also that at the deepest part of each human lies the ability to know wrong from right and when called upon to face it there is no escaping it. Truth has the ability to either keep us Captive or set us Free, it is up to us how we will perceptive it but more important how we act on it. Standing up for the Truth is not always easy but it is necessary for personal and global evolution..... At the end of the case the Mother lost and in the hallway was thankful it worked out like it did. To watch her you know she was now at a turning point of her life. I thought how ashamed I would be if my son had come to court to make sure I was held accountable for my actions. That is something a parent should be teaching a child not a lesson a child must teach from a court room in her 20. The Truth shall set you free in more ways then just your soul. I will say this episode reminded me that My Truth and Yours might not meet in the middle but if we both sit back the Truth will be right there in front of us and at a deep level we will know.. Even if a word is never spoke, we will know the truth and it has the ability to set us Free....

I am who I am and I wouldn't change a thing!!!!

Most of you know I have struggled time and time again with a illness that not only in some aspect stole my life but also gave me some of the best insights into life itself. As I look back at the last few years let alone my whole life I am struck with a observation I am sure only I can reach because it is only I who has lived with this 24/7. It is only I that live from the perception of my own mind. Through the last few years of my active illness I have struggled many times to explain myself, express myself and reach out to others in many ways, it is not until now being in remission 9 months can I really start to see it all come together as my mind is now clearer and my memory sharper than it has been in a while. It has only been lately that I have been able to myself come to terms with a illness that not only effect my body but also my mind.
Like coming out of a deep sleep to awake only to find that you have been living between two worlds or sometimes more like living in two worlds at the same time. Looking back and even observing myself now I can see how this illness has shaped along with my experience who I am and how I view the world and universe around me. Over the years I have tried to understand it myself, I have tried to seek answers outside myself as well, only to time and time again be brought back to my own conclusions and theories. That is not to say that I have not had many experience and validations of my perceptions from others including highly educated people but it is to say that I have met very few people who truly get me and understand fully the world I see through my eye. That truly understand my perception of the world we live in. How can they, many time I find myself confused by it as well.
The last 9 months have been a eye opener on many levels of my life. At times bringing me to my knees and other bringing the beauty of the world into full circle. I am still in the process of understanding everything but one thing is becoming clearer and clearer.. That life is more then the shadow aspects of our mind or the programmed beliefs we have been taught and that life is not about learning to Survive It but learning to Live It..... and that I am who I am because of who I am and that does not make me broken or an outcast but that makes me beautifully unique unto itself...