Morning Insight and Commitment..

It is hard enough just to live in this body let alone in this world.  I know I am not like everyone else, looking back I have known that all my life. Yes it is true I have tried to deny it but what I have learned is truth is truth not matter how much you try to lie to yourself it is impossible. I can think back easily of many occasions were reality met consciousness in such a way that there could be no denying something super natural but more like super human had just occurred. That is the question that has hunted me all my life was it me that was making things happen? was it them, who ever they are or is it a little of both. Is this on Purpose or is this Chaos ?
These questions have been with me so long they have just became a part of who I am. Gathering answers to my own riddle so that some day I can solve it. As strange as it might sound to some that riddle has carried me on many adventures and saved me from many heart ache, even death. It has kept me alive when death came knocking each time and it opened unseen worlds I never would of believed true with out experiencing it for myself.  In the early morning like today when the snow is falling and our world is shifting I find an inner need to speak to a deeper part of myself or maybe it is more like listen.There is nothing more beautiful and awaking then being in the presence of ones own mind and being present within ones own body. It is within the silence of the moment and the relaxing of the body that I find comfort in the fact that even though I might not have all the answer I seek I do have the ones I need and each day more is reviled.

Today I will live within my body aware of all things and I will have communion with my soul mind in a deeper way.