Woke up this morning feeling like a battle raging inside me. I can feel every part of me aching and my stomach is wrenching to remove anything and everything. It seems the battle to regain my health has begun!
Some have said this is the healing crisis. As your body removes toxins and the build up as they release can make you feel sicker then you were to start with. I have felt this before with the virus but this time I know it is the new nutrients that are now doing battle against the toxins that keep my immune system from being able to fight. it is like the story of the 300.. the few will battle as the strength of 1000..
The difference this morning was I had my boy by my side. He rose to the occasion and before I knew it was making our smoothies and telling me to hang on.. Like a angel he peeled and poured add our emergen-C and then blended like a champ! His eyes sparkled as he carefully poured our drinks and then smiled and said " here everything will be better soon". He is right! I am so lucky to be loved like that with nothing asked in return.
Yesterday as I stood looking out into the woods asking how as a people, a nation and a planet we have gotten so lost in what is important to our survival as a species, as an earth family. I looked at my part, what roll does my everyday life play into that and it brought tears to my eyes as I had to look at my own action or I must say lack of. Then it hit me, it was 9/11 . All the lives lost and for what??? All the lives effected by a moment in time that still leaves confusion, mistrust and hated in the hearts of many. I remember the next day posting a sign on the back of my V.W. Bug that read " Let them not die in vain" Here I stood all these years later and I was guilt of the one thing I had hoped would not be lost in that tragic event. The importance of LIFE itself!!!
The value we put on human lives, on our own lives and those of our family. I too had lost touch of that and let myself slip into a sleep of denial of just how precious we really our. what a miracle each one of are and how the lose of just one life should be felt through all as if it was a part of us that died. Because in truth it is. We forget there was only one mother of man kind! no matter your theory on how life began. It can only be traced to one.. weather Eve or a fish in the sea.. it all started somewhere with one... so every time someone dies we have lost a family member, even if they were a stranger to you their essence lives within you. From a moral stand they were someones mother, father, sister, brother, ect .... this goes for all living things.
That day should of marked in my life and the lives of all american that human life is more important then what we are fighting for or the greed of money. At that moment when faced with my own arrogance and denial I made a commitment to those that died on 9/11 to live the best life I could live because unlike them they will never have a chance to reach their full potential. They will never have a chance to see this nation rise from the ashes to become the brotherhood of one nation under GOD!!!
So today as I hang my head over the toilet and my body shakes and aches with pain I will remember their last moments of terror, suffering and pain.. the fear so great they leaped from windows to not burn alive. That they will not die in vain on my watch for them I will push on.. and become all that I can be. I will raise my bar to meet any challenge in their names and through their hearts! I will not forget how precious life is and how if each one of us did the same that day in history would not be looked upon as tragic but a a call to the nations of the world and its people that we must start loving ourselves and loving each other because one day we might be faced with our own immortality and realized we wasted what time we did have on things that in the moment of death will hold no value but by then it will of been to late.
For my son and his sons and daughter and theirs, today again I ask the good lord to watch over the people of this planet and may we all raise our own personal bar and strive not only for personal gain but that of the whole planet and all its children.
Amen........
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