I have been thinking and watching and there are cycles or what I like to call patterns to my life and those around me. Like a small wheel of reincarnation that directs our destiny by the choices we make at those cross roads of life. Some people seem to have many crossroad and other get stuck in the loop.. repeating the pattern until they awaken to the lesson. That is the hard part for the lesson is the same but it sometimes comes disguised as someone or something else. It seem from what I have observed it is a 3 month pattern. Watching those around me they to seem to align to the three month learn or get stuck pattern too. This learn thing is usually an action or surrender choice. Both roads take honesty and courage something that most humans on the planet at this time do not have. They may think they do in theory but asks they to look at the darker side of them self. The self they hid from the world even from them self. That takes real courage and honesty. Sometime taking ones own accounting is easier then facing the same issues day after day. When you get stuck you have to have a deeper experience to bring out the change needed for personal growth. This is not always fun and believe me it gets hard each time the same lesson comes around.. It's Karma in action with no illusion of time." what you reap so shall you sow". Before you can move on you must look into a mirror see who is really staring back at you and your actions. you may also find yourself staring at the same issues that brought you pain the other day. the same ones that have plagued you for years. You know the things that keeps you from being the best you possible, Yeah that one. those patterns that stop you from being, doing or having all the things you have always dreamed of for yourself. I lost those dreams many times by being seduced back into old patterns that keep me always in the dream but never living them. I have watched my self repeat a pattern, even tried to stop myself but found myself right back where I started saying.. WTH!! {heck} Oh I tried to blame someone else, tried to blame the place but all I was left with was a saying my mom said in which I hated hearing. " It doesn't matter, you take yourself with you where ever you go" Oh I hated when she said that.. The problem was so her... funny how later in life I found myself saying Damn she was right. I might have a role here in my life and how it turned out. what an adventure that has taken me. I have now found myself in the smallest pattern in my whole 46 years of life on this planet and I am glad in the olden days a pattern could last up to two years.. that was hell on earth. Now I just have to break free at the next cross road and steady the course this time since I have found the pattern. I have to hold my routine for three months then I will break the pattern and be set free. Well maybe for a day or two only because I soon will be on the next adventure with it's own lessons. I must say it is exciting to see that all I have studied for the past 10 years have lead me to live another one of my theories.. that there are patterns to all things and all things work together when you learn to see your world for what it is not for what you have been told it is... Ahh first step in breaking a pattern is seeing the pattern... be the observer in your own world.. watch it like a movie.. step back and watch your world come alive and maybe even a hidden part of you too. I know my heart is beaming just thinking about what is waiting for me on the other side of this cycle... Change can be scary but what is more terrifying is staying stuck in one pattern for the rest of my life....
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