I love this time of morning, it is beautifully quiet. The darkness it like a resit button that brings me back in reflection to the day that just passed and how to move yesterdays thoughts into today's actions. I feel this morning closer to the spirit of Christmas then ever before. That feeling of family and love but more a time of rejoicing in all things. As I sit down this morning with my cup of joe, I easily go into conversation with myself. That ego part that loves to chat in the morning. Planning the day trying to be like the personal assistant that is giving you a worry report. "Here are the things to worry about to day." I am so glad I made peace with my assistant 7 years ago. Instead of my personal assistant aka Ego coming to me every minute to report the news, I call upon its service or opinion when I need it. We did compromise that in case of extreme emergencies it can still butt in. It took a few years to train myself and my ego to become partners on this path. Now we meet in the mornings over a cup of joe and my journal. It's like my own morning briefing session from the events of the day before.
On its agenda this morning is making a commitment to a morning yoga/stretch meditation.
The past week I have been feeling a inner yearning to devote myself to a daily practice of yoga and stretching. I know I am not the only one whose soul and body are craving to be lived in more fully now. It is the commitment that needs to be there for me.
I have been carrying around Richard Hittleman's books since I was 12. Trying unsuccessfully to make it a daily devotion. My soul was speaking but I wasn't able to understand yet. I also found it hard in the late 80's to be a 13 year old into yoga when the rest of my friends were into more material things and the outer experiance. It was ease to put aside the practice of yoga for the desire of adventure. I have over the years picked it up only to once again start to allow other things my personal assistant.. {Ego} thought were more important to get in the way.
Then once I made my big move and became sick I was physically unable to put anything into practice except learning to live in the moment. Maybe that was my foundation for this yearning to live more fully in my body. Not only though Yoga practices but through the food choices I make. I am starting to hear from the whisperers of my souls divine mind that for there to be permanent change I must be willing to "Commit". Commit to the change and the process and then be devoted to it in all ways.
Sometimes in the illusion of our everyday we get lost and forget we are more then some meat suit walking around trying to make sense of the whole thing. We have to come back to the silence of our own mind and take a moment to communion with our own bodies so we can feel alive. Sometimes we also have to be willing to commit to a better life through taken actions. This is the desire that make me commit to this practice in a daily mediation type of prayer that not only honors the Prime Source that created me but also my Body Temple that houses me.
I have decided to commit to putting into practice a daily Sun Salutation
Something simple to commit to daily.
Learning to be in each pose and feeling the connection with my body I am sure will not only be nurturing for my soul but a needed stretch for my body. I have given myself permission to add poses but I must daily commit to this salutation. There must be commitment and devotion. The commitment holds me accountable, the devotion brings me in divine union with self and source. I am excited to face myself with this issue of self discipline. Something I have not always done well with. Yoga is calling and my assistant thinks its a good idea and my soul has been waiting for about 34 years for this day, so let get this experience started. What better day then Today!!!
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