Yesterday was an amazing day in many ways. I woke up with the sun shining through my window and the birds calling me to play so I did. I headed out early to take care of somethings but also to fill the place in my soul that was calling. Before I knew it I found myself at a beautiful monastery walking the grounds.
The crows were leading me down the path with their music and what a path it was.. saints were along the walk way, a place to sit at the water and mediate. with twist and turns along a tree lined path leading me to Mother Mary adorned with fresh flowers and the children on Fatima knelling before her.. What a beautiful site. I couldn't help myself I was drawn to knelling among the children asking mother Mary to pray for me. I have been to Fatima in Portugal and what a beautiful experiance that was to knee the path of Fatima and that moment was coming to life again in that second. The crows were now loud and flying around like some dance but something seemed strange. As I finished my prayers of thanks and of healing I rose to an open field and as I stepped down the rock stairs to the field a light from the sun shined down brighter then I have ever seen and made the trees glisten with color... I started to feel strange but thought of it as just a feeling of overwhelming because all my senses were going. I stood in the clearing like a child being bathed in the sunlight of the heavens.. As I sensed my cleansing I walked away in somewhat Of a loss of moment or of time its self. As I still followed the path I found myself now not feeling so well. Maybe I did too much, Maybe I should go back.. the crows were getting louder and I started to feel sweaty and clammy and knew this wasn't looking good. I watched a jogger coming down the path.. she seemed like a angel her blonde hair flowing in the wind and a smile that lite up the world, then her face shifted and I knew then something wasn't right. Next thing I could remember was coming to in her arms and her eyes were filled with concern and my heart was beating so it echoed in my head like the beating of a drum. I kept thinking they are right, even when i am alone I am never truly alone.. They have sent me an angel. As she helped me to my feet we seemed to speak in silence as each one of took a moment to realize what had just happened. She walked me back to the nearest bench and sat with me till I gained my strength and thought back. We lightened it up joking she thought she might have to get the monks... weather for help or last rites we weren't sure. All I knew was that the love and kindness of this stranger was a beautiful experience. If that would of been my last moment I would not of died alone and I would of been held in the arms of love. In time we parted ways with a bottle of water and my promise of going and being looked at. So I did.
By the time I got home my blood pressure was 178/105 and rising by the time I got to the ER at times it was 199/103 . As I laid on the hospital bed where I have found myself so many times, I am reminded how lonely this room can be. with machines and people coming in and out it feels more surreal then the experience in that open field. The dance of doctors, nurses, lab tech and cat scan machine echo gram, ect.. The one thing is all the familiar faces from visits past. There is always a calm that comes over me now when I am there a sense of " Its is what It Is" .. My thought keep going back to Mother Mary. Had I been cleansed but yet here I was... Was that problem with my eye and face have to do with this... question of the mind but my heart held the image of Mother Mary.. The Goddess Herself... watching me and keeping me safe. Once again I had rode out what ever it was to come to the hospital after and since I made it, all would be well. Like a drama played out to entertain the mind. I was fine and going home.. The left side of my face was coming back and my eye seemed to be doing better and thinking of Mother Mary had brought my blood pressure back to its norm ( 160/87, which is high but for a girl who lives everyday her body fighting a virus thats pretty good..) I came home and slept.. dreaming of Crows and Angels. Of Mother Mary and her presence. Overall I would say It was a good day. Knelled before the Queen of the Angels, woke up in the arms of an Angel and was once again given another day to live. So for my friend Jane I will be grateful Today " I am alive and well" ... What today brings I have yet to tell....
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