This morning started like any other one would on a day when I plan on starting a new way of life, not like I planned. Isn't that how it always is, when your planning for a change it is usually on a day when you have nothing going. you would love to be doing something, sometimes anything but usually not one thing. So you day dream how your life could be. You make plans in your head maybe even take some notes. Oh how tomorrow would be the perfect day, yes tomorrow.
How many nights I have gone to bed dreaming of tomorrow. Please understand most of my dreams have come true but its the elusive dream that I speak of now. The one that is really only a day away, maybe even a second away. Becoming me. I wish I had another word or way to describe it. All my life it is like there has been a vision that I carry deep in my heart. A vision of what I can become. The artist, The speaker, The writer, The lover, The friend, The conscious being and the true expansion of who I am. That picture that I touch through only my emotions and imagination has been calling me all my life. It is what guides my life. It is why I make the choices I do and why I am so misunderstood at time. It is what keeps me alive and in a beautiful state of mind through all my experiences. It is my reason for living. Because I know " If the mind can conceive it, then it is possible to achieve it! "
This image seems to have a life and will of its own. guiding and, helping me. It feels like its trying to call me home. To someone who feels familiar yet I cant remember being her. It all seems to surreal to put into words but I will say this it is a dream I hold close to my heart but have been slow to manifest it. Maybe I should say I have had many lessons around this. Each lesson pushing me closer but yet the little things that held me stuck I cling to like a life preserver. Each night vowing to change and each morning awaking to the same day. The only thing that would change is the numbers on the calender and about now they seem to have stooped too. Those of you that now me know that I am at a time when change is a must! So today was very important, at least it was yesterday!
So waking up this morning with a eye problem, HBP nausea, Headache and did I mention bad time for the girl thing, was no fun! Before I could even realize today was suppose to be a NEW day my old programs were up and running. Oh how easy it would of been to say ah maybe tomorrow will be better. Once I looked in the mirror it was over. No matter what I am changing starting today. So from my bed I have; had a cup of tea, meditated (posted it on facebook) stretched and gave myself a reiki treatment. got up and had a nice farm fresh salad for lunch and now going to watch a video a friend request me to. So I have decide Hell or High Water I am moving forward.. Yesterday Dream are Tomorrows Reality!!!!!! And I only Have This Moment in Between!!!! I did something today towards my dreams have you? no excuses, just do!
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