Bedside Diary: Today Has Been A Good Day

Well as I start to call it a night I have accomplished a lot from my bed. I saw the living room maybe once or twice today and passed by the kitchen on my stops to the bathroom. I found myself going for quick trips to the kitchen then back to my bed. It was not my prison today but my oasis. I place of solitude and rest. From this bed many plans are made and many dreams have been lost. Something about today allowed me to work through the isolation. To reach out from my inner space to touch you and touch a deeper part of myself. It was like Dr. V said " You will learn to work with your illness" and yes with acceptance came flow today. With surrendering all my burdens to the God within I am feeling a new sense of freedom.  I saw today as a new beginning, one with small steps. Each moment a chance to change my destiny, to expand who I am by discovering what I am made of. In that I mean my ability to transform my thoughts into extensions of who I am.  To move from thought into action and action into reality. Like a Caterpillar who in my cocoon dreamed of one day being a Butterfly with all its wonderful colors and it ability to fly. I must have put my thoughts into action and with patience I must wait for it to become my reality. I must trust all along in the small still voice that says one day at a time love, one day at a time. Until I emerge the butterfly in all my glory... I must surrender and flow for only then can the grace of faith and love create change from within... for without change from within there is no outer reflection of change, only the illusion of one!