Okay this morning I had to admit to myself I might have a problem. It's seems I am one of the millions cell phone users that not only checks my phone at least every hour ( okay I might do it more then that but not the every 5 minutes for sure!) but also first thing in the morning. It seems I have become the kind of person that wakes up in like some sort of narcissistic mode and needs to know if I have missed anything or if anybody has missed me. Then rating my value by the number of notifications I get. Then spending endless minutes checking post that once I sit down at my PC that I will be looking at again, and again... and again... I haven't even got out of bed and another animal is suffering, the government is out to get us and it looks like the Aliens still aren't coming.
Agg... How has this happened?!
I for years fought even having an alarm clock next to the bed because I didn't want the electronic next to my head and now I have a plug in next to my bed that houses at night not only my cell phone but also my tablet. I use to say well I needed it for a clock. What a crock. I have been waking up every morning like clock work for years without an alarm and my internal clock is set for 3:00 to 4:30 depending on the time change for years. I never skip a day. I have no problem waking up without knowing the time. Plus I always hated the pretend to get more sleep game the alarm clock brought. all that changing the time so you can trick yourself into thinking you are gain more time,then you still wake up before the alarm goes off to play the hit the snooze 3 times game, you know that game?! I am tired just writing about it. So that excuse is outdated.
When I first moved from the west coast to here Austin was in California and I still had many friends I talked to so my phone went off most of the night, well at least until midnight and sometimes past. That doesn't happen to much anymore. That excuse is out.
I am sure there are many reason why people need their phone close by but not me. I have a new application on my phone that allows me to put my phone on a sleep mode while I am sleeping allowing only the important calls and texts through. Facebook news will be there all day, Emails can wait, years ago it could take three days to get a letter and no one complained. The truth is if something is important they will use a phone and then leave a message. Seems like all the real excuses are eliminated. They don't call me the excuse buster for nothing..LOL
So this is not a technology problem this is a me problem!
So tomorrow I will place my phone in another room to charge for the night that way when I wake up I can have some time to be in the moment. To maybe going back to hearing the church bell ring. Funny how with the windows closed and my mind locked into checking Facebook, Emails, Blog, ect that I haven't been hearing it even though I know they ring it every morning at 6 am..
If I am serious about changing my life then I have to be serious about the changes!!
The first step in solving any problem it to realize you have one and it's hard to do that when your never present in your life long enough to figure it out.
I am rededicating my mornings back to me!!!
Taking time to be with me before I check in with the rest of the world.
Now that is a dose of healthy Narcissism!!!
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