2 weeks in and are already seeing changes..

Hard to believe it's been two weeks since I started my 30 day challenge.  

It has had it's moments for sure.  

I have been pretty quiet the last week and a half as the 4th of July started our real summer routine. I had a wonderful weeks of playing around with recipes and reorganizing how I spend my time and pay my bills. 

The New Moon Eclipse has been calling in more than just being disciplined with new food habits, seems I am in for a change of lifestyle as well. 

I have lost 8 pounds and do feel more energy since I have started.  Emotionally the last week has been the hardest. I real have had to rely on journaling and yoga poses to start my day and keep me on track. 

The energy of the New moon has been challenging but also seems to have brought some stability in areas there hasn't been for a long time.. Funny how with each day my old habits are fading and new ones put in their place. 

I am still working on being more consistent with my blogging but that to is a challenge and I see why it's hard to post everyday. I will still be playing around with that but like I posted on my Facebook page sometimes it's more about effort than it is about completion!

OveralI,  couldn't be happier with my 14 day outcome and I hope over the next few days I will catch up on my recipes and food blogs along with a few other articles I have journaled. 

It's been such a journey so far I can't wait to see what the next two weeks will bring in both weight loss and displine!

 

Morning routines always set the day

I have found out that how I start my day really can set the tone for how the rest of it goes.
I fantasize like most people about waking up to the perfect day. Being able to take time to stretch before your feet have even hit the floor, the sun coming through your window the birds chirping, you get the picture but seldom does that happen in my household let alone anyone else's.

I use to start my day with Coffee and Facebook. Checking in with the world while waking up. Plan my day and the set out or sit back what ever the day called for. Some mornings I would write, paint or draw other mornings get lost in the endless posts and YouTube videos that filled the gaps in my morning routine.
Since taking in Ollie all of that has changed.

The fact that I have added responsibilities is helping to show me where my time was wasted and how better to use my time. He is my first priority when I wake up there is no doubt about that!
Good thing I do the fireman's drill in no time because getting clothes on and out the door is a must after a long nights sleep for Ollie. His face is like lady what do you mean wait, you just went? 😆

It seems that getting up and at em has been helpful on this challenge. The first thing I grab when we get back from our walk is a tall glass of water. With temps rising early mornings have now become the perfect time for cool drinks.. 
Funny how a walk and water would start changes for the day but it has for me.
The walk invigorate me, the fresh air and the brisk walk seems to awaken my sense and by the time we're back home I feel good about how I started my day. The nosies of my surroundings and taking the time to clear my mind gives me a sense of confidence that social media could never give. No matter how many likes or shares.
Once we are settled back in I am ready for some writing, yoga and planning my meals for the day. My mind seems sharper and ready to plan the day and I find that my check in time for social site are dwindling as I gain more time for doing the things I love while reclaiming my purpose.
My mornings are never perfect but they are a practice in finding what works best for me. I knew Ollie would force me to get out of the house and in turn help me create a healthy walking habit for myself, he is doing that and much more.

Thanks Ollie for the incentive it's helping my morning routine be more productive and self nutring. There is no better way to start the day than taking care of myself and the ones I ❤️!

Waiting for the right time to do something...

Its funny how I really thought yesterday would be a bit rougher since I had to go out and do a few things as well as go shopping. I had enough food for a day or so of my challenge but not enough for the week.
Living in the woods has it's perks but it also has what most City people ( a former one myself) wouldn't like, Dump day. You see no one picks up our trash we deliver it. Now some people see this as a hassle but I see it as keeping my taxes down. Since I do it the town does not have to hire people, spend gas and then in large their facility now to accomplish it. So I really do not mind. It does make for a interesting topic as we go through the drive thru and everyone is so nice and if I didn't go I would never get to see all the other people from our town. Its only open a few days a week and a extra day in the summer due to everyone being at their camps. It also is a reason to have to leave so I make it a day out you can say.

I had made my list already and had decided that I would leave early to beat the heat. Ollie, I and my son headed off for the dump and once we were done I would drop them off and head out alone since it was to hot for Ollie to be in the car for any length of time. 

Since it was going to be another hot one I was rushing around trying to get things done and making a smoothie or juice was not top on my list. I usually have a bad habit of leaving the house without eating. In the past I head out and then grab something on the way home. I end up eating one meal that day or buying a pizza ( yes have a great vegan, gluten free pizza place in a near by town!) and then calling it a day when it comes to eating. Why would I think yesterday would be any different.

I can't lie, knowing that I was going to be alone while shopping had my mind trying to figure out if it was okay to stop at Dunkin for a coffee or one of their other summer drinks. I was spending my time driving thinking about how I should of ate, its getting hot and now I was going to put myself in a grocery store full of food and how getting something from Dunkin would help. Funny how your mind works against you when you really listen. I had a few stops before the store but I knew the first place I would pass was Dunkin. You think it would of been easy to pass by but I put on my blinker and was about to go in until I realized that I would only be cheating myself and that it was only the second day with the challenge but 3 days without coffee or a substitute. I manged to pass it by but believe me going into the store was another thing.

Summers gets a bit crazy in New England and especially around the 4th with campers coming up to the White Mountains and everyone up for the Camps so the stores were a mad house. Many people and shelves looking like a Storm was coming. People rushing around deciding what to get for the 4th and weekend I am sure. Here I was in the Product dept getting some fruits and vegetables. Now of course I was getting hungry and the heat was starting to peek so everyone including myself were just trying to get in and out. As I followed the shopping list my mind was trying to figure out what more I could eat. Going down every aisle looking for something to jump out at me.  You see on the way to home to drop them off we had a discussion about how with the heat I might need more than sugars so maybe we would extend the challenge to include anything I could make Raw and not cooked. That way if I needed some protein I could get it from nuts, beans, ect.  So here I was in the store trying to figure out how to put a Vegan Ruben Sandwich in the Vitamix!!  I managed to get out of the store with sticking mostly to my list but my mind was racing on the fact that I really needed to eat something. It was going on noon by now and I hadn't ate a thing.

By the time I got home my Son could tell that I was getting grumpy, hot and hungry and we joked that maybe doing this challenge now was not the right time. It made me think about how many times I had used that excuse to not do something. Oh diets work better if started on a Monday, I would go for a walk but its to hot, it's to cold, oh  if only this, if only that. Wow that is what got me to were I am now. If you follow my blog you know I start out good but I let excuses get in the way of following through. Like in true Gemini fashion I just move on. This time was the right time and the heat in its own way was helping. I was not getting as hungry for hot foods and wanted to be cooled down with salads and smoothies anyways. I told him about wanting to put a Ruben Sandwich in a blender and we had a huge laugh about it. 

Once everything was unpacked I ended up making lunch for everyone else then had to decide on what I was going to eat or drink.  By now I was starving and knew I would need more than a juice or smoothie to get me by. Yes, I am still cooking foods for everyone else, even Ollie gets some brown rice and sweet potatoes with his food.  I had decided that I would make a chickpea lettuce wrap.
It would take some time but be worth it and it so was. With some easy prep work and beautiful radicchio lettuce it made for a filling meal.

That did ended up being the only meal of the day like always but at least it was light and hit the stop. With the heat as the day went on I didn't feel much like eating which I am sure helped. With the extra water I am drinking it seemed to be the perfect way to satisfy my craving for something more hearty while helping me to not put a Ruben Sandwich in the Vitamix!!

Like the old saying never put off today what you could do tomorrow because when tomorrow comes you will of made more work then if you just did it yesterday!!! It's never to late to start something especially when it comes to your health and well being! 

If you would like the recipe to my Chickpea Salad you will be able to find it later today on my WordPress blog and like always if you enjoy my posts and blogs subscribe to get notifications and to get more insight follow me on Facebook and Instagram. I also want to say that I am working on videos right now and hopefully will be sharing them on here and other sites.
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So it begins...

Today was the first day in my 30 day Discipline challenge, 

It started out easy but as the day has gone on my body is craving a little more to fill my tummy.  

My morning Smoothie and afternoon Juice hit the spot but around 2 pm, I was craving something more and ended up making a pudding in the Vitamix. . 

I thought maybe I would use this blog to share my overall thoughts and experiences while using my WordPress blog to share my recipes, yoga and other items of interest over the next 30 days. 

So I will use this more as a Diary of sorts while the other as a Food and Healthy living record of what I made, ate and did. 

I must say I expected a little more of a headache today since it is my second day without coffee but I seemed to do fine. We are experiencing a heatwave which can be very draining. I have been drinking extra water and trying to stay cool but I can tell it's taking it's toll on both me and Ollie. 

We were not able to get in our major walking we do about 2-3 times a day because of the heat so it has made us both a bit restless and lazy at the same time.

Kept myself busy by putting somethings away and doing some early morning planting. With this heat, planning your day is key. I was excited to use some celery and basil from my container garden today. Cant wait for the tomatoes to come in! Not going to yield much again this year but the practice counts. Learning what works and what doesn't as we go on our second summer here. 

I am not sure if I will make it through the night without something more but for now extra water and hoping it will be somewhat cooler tomorrow but the weather man seems to think not. 

 What better time though to use only a blender and juicer, could only imagine the heat in here if the oven or stove had to be on. At least its another way to stay cool on these early Summer days.

So day one went good but the temptation is there. Tomorrow wont be a breeze as I have to go to town and I just cant pick up a pizza on the way home. Well if discipline was easy I guess it wouldn't make things a challenge.   

Just a reminder to see the recipes I used check out my WordPress blog tomorrow at http://justinebrasil.wordpress.com

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always appreciate you sharing this journey with me.....  

"Discipline" The Calling of Saturn....

Last week I started to notice a pattern around the word discipline. Everyday that word would be said or read. To the point of not being able to ignore it. It was there. Making me think about the word and it's meaning around this Full Moon Saturn energy.
From You Tube videos to social media posts it was becoming obvious that this word "Discipline" was trying to get my attention.
I have to say that for a Gemini, discipline isn't one of my strong assets. Can I do it yes but do I apply it everyday no. Like the butterfly Gemini that I am sometimes I think it's not as much about discipline as It is about  keeping my focus on one thing at a time.
Every time the word has came up I have had to ask myself how disciplined am I but more importantly how disciplined could I be if I put my mind to it.
When I first learned of my food allergies it was very difficult for me to try and navigate the discipline of eating only what I could when the foods around me had so much I was allergic to in it.  It was really difficult learning how to focus primarily on foods that I could eat and changing the way I eat completely . I knew that in order to get better I had to be disciplined in not eat something I ate all my life but now had become allergic to. In the early years it kept me antisocial for a very long time until I learned how to not feel awkward or make the other person by not having something I was able to eat when we were socializing together.
I found that by bringing my own food to events helped with that. It gave me something to eat but also an opportunity for me also to prepare food something that I love to do.  Which had been a casualty due to all my food allergies. I had learned how to cook all these wonderful dishes but now I was allergic to them! I had to relearn how to prepare food in order for me to have a meal and feel satisfied. Not easy going from being a Meat and Fish eater overnight to being a raw vegan.
Since it was hard for me to process how could I expect anyone else to. Yet the most social thing we do in America is eat together. From sporting events to just Kickin It on the couch watching a movie it all revolves around food.
Those years did take discipline and patience with myself.
I also found myself as time went on over indulging in what I could eat sometimes and not really sticking to good healthy eating habits.
I could see why the Full moon energy of Saturn the Grandfather would be asking me to get back to being more focused and disciplined in my eating and lifestyle.
Since I'm very close with my teenage son I discussed the fact that the Universe seems to be wanting me to become more disciplined. That I felt it was time for me to really buckle down and make a commitment but also become more disciplined in my life. Like a true best friend  who has heard this line before I could tell by the look on his face it was for how long? I said No really!!
I reminded him of when I had to change my diet and he laughed and was like and how long ago was that?! If I didn't know better I would have thought Saturn was speaking right through that boy to me so I took that challenge and I challenged him back.
Since the toughest discipline for me really is about food and cutting back of starches and breads. A 30 day Vitimix and Juicer fast for the month of July is what it will be. It runs perfect with the Full moon Eclipse on July 27th. Using the energy of the Strawberry Grandmother moon will no doubt help me to complete such a gift to myself and give me a way to honor the memory of the friends I lost to illness, cancer and tragedy this winter.  Some have Lint, Ramadan, Holy fasts in which to cleanse the body, honor ancient ways and religions or to clear the mind and purge the body. Some would even say the Soul. It's good for the body and mind to be challenged sometimes and to form disciplines in honor of ourselves and others. Also to be an example to others how powerful we can be when we set our minds to something or feel passion in our hearts to heed the call.
I then challenged my son if I did it for the whole month of July then he needed to do it for the month of August. He accepted.  
So starting tomorrow I will be on a Juicer/Vitimix fast. Anything I can make from those I can eat or drink. I can still have a hot tea or tonic in the morning but no more biscuits and gravy Sundays..
Thank you "Discipline" for showing up in my life I can't wait to see what changes will come because I heard the call and took the challenge.  

Felt like the longest Winter ever...

    One of the things I love about living on the East coast is that no matter how bad the winter,
be assured it will pass.

I have had to keep reminding myself of this all winter. Since October it has seemed that my life has took many changes. Some expected other were like a slap in the face. Lets say my life has never been easy but whose has? Its just in the past I have been able to rise above it until it passed and then dealt with the consequences of my decisions or those outcomes. Processing as I go along. 

Use to be a time when it seemed like I could imagine that there has to be something better on the other side of this.  

Lately I had lost that only being able to hold on to one moment at a time without being able to rise up to meet the lesson or challenge. 

I have hid many days of tears behind my smile and faced the sometime lonely moments of my life in the only ways I could. Knowing if I could just hold out this to shall pass even if I had to do it one moment at a time. 

Looking back I have felt this way for the past 4 years. After battling for my life while trying to raise my beautiful son I was faced with many challenges but it was different. I was trying to teach him while leaving him memories of me to keep when he got older. Life lessons at the time I never thought I would be able to see or be there for. 

Then in 2013 when I had my first signs of remission we only had about 5 months to process that before my ex husband threw us into a 2 year court battle which made me afraid to express myself to anyone or on any social sights. Have you ever tried to keep a Gemini quiet?? Hard and when they are believe me it is like a slow death. Seemed what the virus didn't try to kill keeping my thoughts inside was.

I kept the dream alive of living in the woods, writing and speaking for a living. Even though now and then much of my life consisted I trying to gain back the confidence that over the years I had lost.

Then I have insights like yesterday where I know all those moments lead here. No matter the storms..

When I look around the backyard it doesn't look like Maine had the worst winter storm in years.

 It caused a state wide power outages, snapping trees in half and leaving still a lot of clean up that no one is talking about but you can see it as you drive around. 

When looking out over the deck yesterday I could relate it to my journey in the fact that on the outside you can not always tell the destruction or damage the many storms of my life has caused until you look closely. That no matter the storm when it passes things will turn green again. There will be new blooms and new species that rise from the ashes.  

There are days I have to accept that my life is not what I thought it would be or look like. 

That I may not have the people in my life I thought but at least I am alive to enjoy those that are now in it but it is the dream my soul carried to get me here. 

Yesterday while driving I asked my mom did you ever think we would end up here? and she giggled and said No, not a clue but isn't that life.  The cliche about " you never know what life has in store for you" is true for me but is not always true for some people. They can set their watch by their daily routine and it goes along pretty smoothly. I always wished I had a life like that until yesterday when I could look into the woods, smell the clean air, hear the birds speaking to each other and really take in the moment. 

Its moments like that when it all comes together even if its just for a split second. When I am reminded that a life lived is never easy, never perfect and often misunderstood, yet always worth the freedom it offers when you can be authentically yourself. 

I have wanted to raise my voice again in the past many times but I have let the judgement of others or the worry of what others might think cause me to keep my opinions and insight to myself. 

Not any more. 

After losing my best friend and having to battle to prove I am not doing anything wrong, that I am sick,  that I am this and not that, I am tired!! The storms I have walked through have not only proved to myself what kind of person I am at the heart of things but proved that the opinions of other are useless and self serving most of the time. Basically it's never about me as much as them.

I once read that when you have a idea or insight you should never share it because the moment you do someone will try to tear it down or take it aways from you. How many times I can count that happening is numerous. I even wrote a children's book about it. Yet here I was falling into the same trap? 

No more.

The storm does not make me, how I ride it out does. 

You will never know the storms another person has gone through by the regrowth they have made no more then you can judge a man by the act of another. I am done being silent to not offend or have a opposite opinion then my peers.  In truth I have never been like my peers nor do I have a hive mentally. I am not a bee, I am a crow... 

I usually fly alone, I am highly intuitive and smart, I look after others and never waste anything given to me nor forget a wrong done to me. 

So why now try to convert??? 

These woods give me many insights to my life and open doors to adventures I know I will experience as much as I know winter will return. 

I have come to a few conclusions since losing my closest friend, that somethings you can see coming yet are never prepared for, that this too shall pass and that never let your dreams die with you because your ego was afraid of what others thought or couldn't understand. That the quickest way to kill creativity and productiveness is to silence a persons ability to communicate their true feelings even if we disagree with them. 

These past years have taught me much but this winter brought the lessons full circle. I look forward to a transforming summer as I pick up the pieces of my life while building a new one out of all the dreams and promises I made to myself over the years. No long will I hide or not express who I am for anyone else. 50 years of living should give me that right and if it doesn't then my own experiences do.  

Spring might of been short here but Summer will make up for it in more ways then I can even imagine now. Time will never replace this past winter but it will help me move forward in ways that up until now I could only dream of. 

So glad  that on those days I wanted to give up that small voice told me to hang on.

No matter if that was me, Angles, Aliens, God or Goddess...  

Thank you again for Never giving up on me!!

Its a new season and I have new reasons to be the best me so lets get this show going!!! 

I have new seeds to sow and new dreams to dream and no matter what challenges I face they to shall pass just like a New England Winter....

"This To Shall Pass"

As the days pass I find myself drifting between moving forward and looking back. The sadness I have been feeling without truly knowing what life has ahead for me at times seems to much. I try to keep my thoughts to uplifting and motivating but my emotions seem to be getting the best of me at times.
Here over the summer I was planning my new life while watching my friends life coming to an end and as heartbreaking it was there was a familiarity I was seeking in now wanting to begin my life  like I did many years ago when my father died and I felt I was being gifted my husband while losing my Father.
The similarity in timing was also eerily similar in the fact that as when my father died I had just got married in the month of August and my Father fell ill in October ( Greg started his visits to the hospital for overnight stays in Oct) Now years later I once again was considering a new life but also coming to terms with the fact that my best friend would not be sharing it with me. The same I felt as my father was dying knowing how lucky I was to have him walk me down the isle but now was loosing him. Greg had been there through the rough times and now had saw my dream come true of getting a house and moving my mother in and hopefully having a wonderful life but his time was short to enjoy it before his battle began.
The next few months would be touch and go on both ends as I was watching my friend slowly die I was watching the dream of this new life becoming shattered to the point of no return. By Thanksgiving it was obvious I was going to be losing both. My past and my future were dying before my eyes and I was helpless to do anything about either. The dreams of what could be were coming to a close and the depression of the choices made were at times unbearable emotionally. I did what I always do, held on to Faith.
I held on to the "One day at a time", Keep healthy, take care of yourself the rest will fall into place.
Over December it was all I could do to get out of bed and put on a smile for my son and mom. Knowing with the weather in Maine the chances of me seeing Greg or just getting out were slim to none and now having no one but myself again left little chance of seeing him unless the weather broke. This was not a easy winter those early months with state wide power outages and blistering cold weather. They also were starting to medicate him and talking to him on the phone was getting hard. My heart was breaking and my virus was not staying dormant so even on the days I could drive to see him I had a breakout and couldn't be around him anyways with both of us in a weakened immune state. Those were some of the most depressing days.
You know how pissed a person can get when you cant do the things you want when you want and are helpless to do anything about it and when you cant let it out it just eats you up inside.
The emotions were pulling me in so many directions with the disappointment in myself that I had once again allowed my co dependent nature to over ride my common sense and that my lovely but damaged brain had naively once again fallen for a men who I thought was stronger emotionally then he turned out to be and that here I had basically kept myself alive through some of the toughest years of my life while fighting this rare disease and developed wellness strategies that anyone could use but my best friend didn't, allowing his old patterns and habits to keep getting in the way of his healing.
You know how frustrating that is.... How heartbreaking??
that the two loves in my life both were unable to take what I was freely giving and use it to save their lives or at least enhance it in ways we could never of imagined.
That I could see it like a train wreak coming down the tracks but the driver wouldn't heed my warnings or pleases....
I live with those thoughts everyday knowing that spiritually it all happened for a reason and physically some people cant change even if not changing will someday kill them or hurt the people they love. That really I am only responsible for myself and anyone outside myself capable of making a decision its their choice and I need to learn to mind my own business but how does one with a heart my size do that????
Boundaries you say???  Boundaries are only as good as you keep them. Plus I always am open to second chances and letting let live but the helplessness of watching the people you love slowing killing themselves has become even to much for this Earth Angel.
Things started to take a stranger twist as the anniversary of my Father death was nearing so was Greg's death. I had even asked my mom if my memory was right and she agreed. I said I wasn't sure if I could take it if he died on the same day. I prayed and was able to see Greg the day he went to hospice and I had promised I would come see him and I knew in my heart he had waited to talk to me about going and when I told him I thought it was best he go later after the visit I got the call he had decided to go that night and was moved there within hours. I came home and cried like I had never cried trying to process all that had happened over the summer and now winter and how things were not at all as I had hoped they would be.
Greg should of been kicking ass and getting better and I should of been building the foundations of a new purposeful life but what I was doing was once again picking up the shattered piece of my life.
Greg did not die the same day my father, he died one day later just a short time after I visited him in Hospice and told him it was okay to go. That everyone was going to be okay the same way I told my father those same words so many years before. I still now can not contain my tears just thinking about it.
In a few days it will have been a month since I saw my best friend for the last time not that we even spoke words between us but I knew he knew I was there. In this month that has followed I have been struggling to move forward while others times feeling stuck in my head. Repeating things over at times, reliving them and wishing some how I could change them or maybe even seeing were I never could of. There is something about the cycle of life that can not be denied. My Fathers death being so similar in timing and how both those men while not perfect where always there for me and how I keep giving up my dreams for others that would never do the same for me. Its making a new cocktail versions of emotions and insight that I guess only grief and mourning can give. Either way I think I have gotten the lesson this time on many levels.
I still am struggling to find my way home from this and that's okay.
I know it takes me a bit more to move through the process and there is no expiration on grief as there in none on Love. It is the reality of things I am learning to except now.
 The one man who checked on me everyday and that I could depend on over these past years to be there no matter what, someone who was extended family to my son ( and never missed one band concert and made sure I didn't miss a one!), who drove me when I couldn't, was my listening ear and had a open heart, the brother I could call out and he would do the same is gone.
The future I was trying to create through the Love of another is done.
It's time to move on, time to pave a new road from scratch and work to keep what I so courageously have kept fighting for and gained. I know Greg would want that but more then that I do.
I have a dream, that one day I will be able to get back to speaking and sharing what having this medical affliction and disease has done to my life but also all that I have learned from it.
To get off assistants and be able to make a living  being of service to others while share my life and gifts, talents and time.
To be that writer from Maine who lives in the woods and loves life..
Hey wait that is me!! LOL
Okay, I just need a fined tuned version of myself in the healthiest state possible and then I will be on my way but the dream is alive and I am always working towards it even if the only step I take today is writing this.
If I have learned one thing over the years its. My body may fight against me but as long as I have Faith everything will be fine.

             That in those moment everything seems to much I say these words quietly to myself..

"This to shall pass" 

picture by Della McGee

                                       and then I know everything is going to be alright......

Easy as 1,2,3...

     So with my heart mourning the death of my dearest friends I find myself searching for answers through a mind set of what if's and if only's. If those are even words they for sure are emotions that creep up during times like this. I do know one thing if anything Greg would want me to learn from what times we shared and mistakes we both have made. Death of anyone can be surreal and at time crippling and for me always life changing.
    This is not the first time someone I have loved has passed and I am sure it will not be the last but with each one I have learned to appreciate my living.  Reminding me to do all the things I have been talking about but never found the time, finishing up things left undone and finding out what the past 4 years have taught me about who I am and where to go now with the second part of my life.
   So when in doubt bake!! Baking is not a strong point and I am always searching to find a sweet tooth recipe and I think I found one that satisfies my love of peanut butter cookies without the eggs.

Thank you Hannfords "Fresh" 

January/February 20018

for this great recipe that I could tweak and make my own!!

It's a 3 Ingredients Cookie!!

The recipes loosely says grab some Peanut Butter, Quick oats and a Banana 

Mash it up and add anything you would like to add flavor 

 Preheat your oven to 350-375  then shape dough into cookie and bake for 10-20 minutes depending on how you like them.

You can find the real recipe ( which I suggest if your picky like that ) or figure it out from my directions. Either way they are Delicious!!!! and a quick snack if you have those three things and are craving something sweet and will give your tummy and soul a great pick me up.. 

keep in mind I love to experiment in the kitchen and I am sure Hannaford wouldn't mind if you make this recipes your own too.

I know its helping to heal my heart and ease my mind while making my tummy smile!

Just what I can use about now...

I love a good cuddle

Looks like Floyd has decided this morning that we should cuddle. At first I was like can't you see I am journaling here? But like most cats he knew best. It made me journal here.
Its not to say I can't use a good cuddle, Oh I can!!! The past few months have been a roller coaster of losing loved ones to death and addiction.
Never been so glad to see a year go but also a sad way to start 2018. I joked on my Facebook page that January was a trial month and it sure has been.
The beginning of the year was not where my journey started its where one eneded.
As I am still processing the events of winter I am focusing my energy on what I can control. Me!!
Taking my time back for the benefit of me, stepping up in my life in the areas I have been lacking and easing up on myself in the areas I am still working on.
Death and Rebirth are entagled and so are the cycles of our own personal lives.
As one cycle closes it gives oppurtunity for another to begin.
Im ready to step boldly back into my life and start living from the essence that is me and allow myself to be imperfect. To just be me and enjoy moments like this...